maybe it’s a relief to be unhappy
because trying to be happy all the time is exhausting.
maybe there’s a place beyond happiness and unhappiness.
not in the middle.
BEYOND = accepting both happiness and unhappiness.
that they are a part of every day.
you don’t have to welcome them.
you don’t have to be glad to see your old friend unhappiness.
but if you’re upset, be upset.
if you need to cry, cry.
maybe if you allow them to be there
your tears will dissolve.
remember, your tears won’t dissolve into happiness.
don’t fall into that trap—
doing your spiritual work and still waiting for perfect happiness.
my hope for you is that you come to a place where you’re unhappy—
and THAT’S OKAY.
you haven’t done anything wrong
unless being human is wrong.
do not mistake peace for happiness.
peace is not a utopian state of ecstasy, pleasure or even comfort.
peace “goes beyond understanding.”
i can tell you this much—you know it when you feel it.
your heart settles
and your body is lighter.
gravity is less of a burden.
and even if things aren’t good, they’re still alright.
no matter what, my hope for you
is that you find a place inside yourself
where you can finally rest.